Hi Megan, as someone who has been deconstructing from evangelical Christianity over the last 15 plus years, I have appreciated you and your perspective for awhile now, and I imagine it hasn't been easy for you deconstructing from such an extreme version of evangelical Christianity, and doing so in the at times skeptical and antagonistic public eye as well.
I also admire you for how you have tried to be gracious to your detractors (including in the fallout from the Witch Trials Of JK Rowling podcast, which I admit I had some mixed feelings about, but resonated with the intention behind it) just as others have been gracious to you, and respect you for trying to model that, as difficult as that may be to do in these divisive times.
Anyways, I'm enjoying this series so far, and I appreciate how you have been open and vulnerable about your own personal life and what you have had to give up and wrestle with, and I like how you are trying to take a 'don't throw the baby out with the bathwater' approach to the Bible and to the Christian faith in general, which I think is a thoughtful way to approach it.
I was going to add that I can very much relate to your mixed feelings about the Jesus of the Bible, and as someone who read the whole of the Bible when I was in the church (and at times felt like throwing it across the room) I don't believe that Jesus, at least how he is presented as in the Gospels, was the cookie cutter paragon of compassion and grace that he is often painted as the masses, but was a contradictory figure (unless people want to do mental gymnastics to claim otherwise), which always bothered me, as though people were projecting something onto him that wasn't really accurate, and like he wasn't really what people were selling.
I've said for awhile now that there are others, like the late great Fred Rogers for example, that I would uphold as being more consistent figures of compassion and grace, more so than I would Jesus (which makes me think of how Jesus said that some of those who followed him would be greater than him, which is something to think about).
Like you I am no longer a believer, although I fall somewhere in that growing 'spiritual but not religious' category, and am trying to find my way.
I have been very interested in the nature of reality and consciousness, and authors like Michael Talbot and Jeff Kripal and others have been helpful in that exploration, and then people like yourself have been helpful in my deconstructing from my past beliefs and trying to move forward, so thank you for that and for helping others like me to feel less alone in this journey.
I look forward to hearing more of this series and hearing more from you in the future. 🙂
- sincerely, Matt W.